back now... 8 mnths

i have not added any blog since april this yr.. but good nobody has actually visited as yet i guess so nobody missed anything ...

however just thinking of blogging more seriously and maintain a routine ....

its dec now and getting really cold in UK with darkness setting in sooner and so making mind get lazier .... still its nice in some way ....

feeling very lazy, bored and chilled always ... so let me blog something to kill boredom atleast..

lots of things happened bet april and now ofcourse ,,, life does not stand still for anyone does it?

first of all had a two mnth break in india which i thought will help me very much but sadly did not .. this was the first time in past 5 yrs i wanted to come back to UK soon ....
dont know y or may be sometimes i know .... i have left my most priced treasure here .... may be thats pulling me ....
or have nothing in india now so does it feel a big vaccum there .... both are true

joined back work in sep ... same role nothing very new or challenging
and then boom came the credit crunh thing and now every day is 'nithya kandam poorna aayeesu' at work ....
dont know when we will hear the ineveitable ... so open mentally for any sort of thing ...

moved to a new house in a new place near my hubbys work place .. to give him some comfort
do i like it very much ... not exactly the locality but like the house though ....

actually did not do much ...other than this ....

a very normal routine .... with not any masala spice at all ....
in the category of films its documentary !!!

Mosquitos and EB sadhi

Just 5 days away from landing on chennai and not able to control the excitement ...
Looking forward for everything ... obviously my parents first and then the busy congested traffic ... crowded roads, selfish people ... but the highlight is the stray dogs, mosquitos and the frequent power cuts . When we were in school the best thing we would do (me and my sisy) is play antakshari and kill the power cut time and also kill lots of mosquitos !!!

is something like that in store this time as well ... am not sure .... but i wont have my sisy around ... so probably dont want the power cuts !!!

Sanakya Sanakya - Dum

Everything in my pre-marriage life is mostly linked to some song that i enjoyed most. When i get nostalgic and think of anything about school, college, home functions get togethers etc there is a special song which i enjoyed most for every incident ... 'Sanakya ..' from the movie Dum is one such song which i went crazy about during my days in Polaris ... the reason being my husband .. i simply loved this song and it was one of the songs i enjoyed most during our 'jollu' days :)
I can still remember the number of times i used to listen this song and my whole team in office would tease me about this, specially my PM .... Most importantly when we used to get dropped after late night calls in the office van this was the song most heared and sung(by me!!!) ...
i have recently got this into my ipod and can't stop listening to this ... or thinking about my level of 'jollu' :):) ... lovely times in life i should say ....

Why?

There are many things in life that we ask 'Why?'
It is important to know the why for many things ... but there are lots of other things for which we will never know Why?...
Not knowing the Why can be very daunting ...
this is particularly applicable for one of the toughest truth of life i.e death ...
Losing a dear one is the most painful thing in life ... although we all know that this is inevitable truth of life .... its one of the difficult things to overcome ...
It gets all the more difficult to lose a very little, fragile, and priced possesion like your own baby ... for no known reason ...

Why me? is the most horrible questions of all ... and there is no known person in this world who can answer this ...

To cope with the world and to start living again as if nothing happened is the worst expectation of life ... Only God who knows the answer for 'Why me?' can give me the strength to see life beyond ...

Back to chennai

I am looking forward for the most releaving and comforting time in just a week i.e when i am going to back in chennai for a month atleast may be longer ....
i know from the weather point of view its one of the worst times to visit chennai ... but i am going to be indoors most of the time and spend time with my parents ... no other big agenda ...

i am particularly keen to see my mom ...have had a real tough time last month and need a comforting lap to lie down :) nothing in the world is more comforting than that ... need that badly ...

may be will catch up with some of my friends (who are available!!) ...

nothing is as special as chennai !!!

Why Blog?

I am now in the most nonchalant time of my life. I have never been so free in terms of nearly ZERO physical activites, and so full with thoughts about so many things .. so the best thing to do is probably put down some of these overflowing thoughts ...

I am not going to talk or debate about any one thing in particular ... just writing dowm things that come across in my mind ...

For a rough idea ... As i am not in the best/ most cheerful phase of my life ... so my blog may be sometimes sad, Philosophical, analytical ... or simple just thoughts/feelings let out ...

I will try as much as possible to make it interesting and engaging ...